Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Big Bad Halloween Candy Wolf

One week from tomorrow until I'm gone, baby! So far 1200/day is not working. But now I'm at least used to starving. I'm a little afraid of Mexico because if 1200/day is causting me to maintain, what's my body going to do on Mexican food??? And beer??? And tequila???

Oh, and what's up the parents in this neighborhood buying the expensive chocolate candy. Don't they know I'm STARVING!!!!!

Monday, October 23, 2006

Nothing Lost, Nothing Gained

Well...nothing is lost, but nothing has been gained. It's very frustrating. But I will stick with the 1200 calories a day until I leave in 2 1/2 weeks. Then...who knows what I'll do. I did splurge this weekend and shared a pitcher of light beer with the husband. Perhaps in a couple of days, that will show up. I almost started to blow it again on Sunday, but thanks to the husband, I didn't dive into a bag of Gardettos! Oh, but they still sound really, really good.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

It's working, but...

I

cannot

blog...

No

energy...

I'm

starving!

Friday, October 06, 2006

AIIIEEEEChiwawa!

So I broke down and got on the scale today...AIIIIIEEEEEChiwawa! Now that was scary. But now I remember why I don't weigh. It puts me in a bad mood. And when I weigh light, I feel the freedom to stuff my face! So, no more scale. The husband insists we keep it out because he likes to weigh daily. So, I'm going to have to white nuckle it.

Wish me luck!

BTW...I bought some Slim Fast to try. I haven't had it in about ten years. I don't remember it tasting this nasty. Oh well. Guess I'll have to white nuckle that too. I'm definitely not going to buy any more. Or maybe I'll get used to it, kind of like I had to with the diet pop.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Weight:??????

So I'm feeling a little better these days. I dont' know if I'm shrinking or not. It's kind of weird not weighing in. Some days the scale (which the husband insists we keep) calls to me. I think my clothes are getting bigger, but it could just be in my head. You know what's weird? I've found that when I really pay attention to what my body is craving, and how much it actually wants to eat to feel full, it's really not a lot of food. And really it's pretty healthy. Odd, huh?

On a side note. I told my Mother that I thought our family had a really sick way of dealing with weight. And even though they are all super-thin people, they have an unatural obsession with looks, etc. I think I hurt her feelings. But really, that's the way I think it is. I think every generation either breaks away from an unhealthy cycle from their family of origin or feeds that cycle and escalates it. It think the food thing is going to be my thing to conquest. My children? Perhaps Mommy's little computer obsession...;)

Anyway, not weighing and really paying attention to what I'm feeling seems to be really working so far. However, I am disappointed that I'm not going to be where I want for Mexico in November. I am going to be the big girl of the group. YIKES! Oh Well...perhaps one good booze cruise, and I won't care any more. Oh no, I hope the alcohol thing is not what my children will have to work on.