Sunday, April 29, 2007

One Day Blog Silence

One Day Blog Silence

There has been a lot of criticism for those choosing to be silent tomorrow, April 30th. And I agree, sometimes silence isn't the healthiest of ways of dealing with one's sorrow. However, I also believe that some talk too much. And perhaps if we in our busy lives would sit and be silent, and remember all who suffer in this world, we might be kinder to each other and ourselves. And for that reason I am choosing to be silent tomorrow.

Join me or not. The choice is yours. And I’m certainly not going to choose for you.

Friday, April 27, 2007

Weekly Weigh-In--i.e. one really boring post

Weight: I don't know. I'm not weighing in today. The odds are good that I didn't lose, and I don't want to be in a bad mood for the rest of the weekend.

Saturday--Heavy yard work-2 hours
Monday--30 minutes cardio; 1 hour weights
Tuesday--45 minutes Spinning class
Wednesday--1 hour weights
Friday--Haven't decided. I probably need to do cardio again. But I also need to work in the yard.

Food: Did fine until yesterday. Had a bad food day. I did the low-carb thing and totally brokedown and ate some tatertots. They were yummy. And they were worth it. I'm back on track today. I'm boiling some eggs right now.

Well that's all for this week. I don't really have anything inspirational to say.

Have a good weekend!

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Step One: We admitted we were powerless over our addiction...

I've decided that I've gotten myself on a bad sugar trend. I'm keeping the sugar consumption within my calories, but I'm starting to get the cravings. Thoughts like, "I could have this candy bar and skip lunch..." are running through my head as I stand in line at the grocery store. It started back on the weekend where I finished off my son's b-day cupcakes in one day. They were fantastic, and I ate nothing else the rest of the day in a pure panic. I haven't had a repeat of that fateful day since, but the craving to do so is still there. How long can the willpower possibly last?

So, starting today I going for something drastic. I'm getting rid of the sugar. Well actually, I'm getting rid of all of the grains and the sugar. I'm only doing it for a few days. I'm not a crazy woman! I'm hoping that getting rid of these foods will only have to last a few days to get rid of the cravings. I'm already not thinking clearly, and I'm deathly afraid of slipping tonight once the kids are in bed, and I get bored.

I sure do love my evening yogurt.


And right now? I'm so twitchy. I can't stop thinking of those yummy fiber one bars that are in my pantry.

Mmmmmmmm..... chocolate, peanut butter.....mmmmmmmmm.


Can you believe I'm only 1/2 through day one?

I don't know how you South Beachers make it through two whole weeks of this nonsense!

I'm going to the gym.

Monday, April 23, 2007

We're not so far apart, you and I

Sunday I had quite a drive to get to my son's soccer matches, and we were listening to the BBC. During the entire ride there, there was a discussion about Mauritania and it's "wife-fattening" farm. It was a fascinating set of interviews.

Apparently in Mauritania the woman are expected to be fat. Men won't marry a woman unless she is exceptionally fat, and girls from a very young age are force fed by their female relatives. They are generally sat down and stuffed to the point of throwing up, and if they do, they are sometimes forced to eat the throw up. There is one area where young girls are forced to drink milk and cream until their bellies are rotund. At that point a hole is dug in the ground, and they are forced to lie down with their bellies in the hole. This whole process is done to promote stretch marks, a very significant sign of beauty Mauritania.

The fashion of being fat and having a significant amount of stretch marks has become a huge health problem for the women of Mauritania. Doctors try to explain to their patients that this type of obesity is terribly unhealthy, but they are met with suspicion as in Mauritania a skinny woman is suspected to be unwell because of the vast amount of Aid’s patients that exist in their area. In fact there is a new population of these doctors' patients who have begun taking animal steroids to promote quick weight gain and thus stretch marks.

Recently, however, women and men of Mauritania have begun to value a healthier lifestyle. A small number have begun to exercise and size themselves down to a size 12, a very small size for this country. I got the impression, however, that although some men, ironically who are supposed to be thin and muscular themselves (the opposite of their women), may find thinner women attractive, this viewpoint is viewed as an oddity.

So what is my point in telling you all about this news story? The whole time I was listening I couldn't help but think, take out fat and put in skinny and you'd have a whole different country. Perhaps ours?

Read it!

Every once in a while you read something that deserves it's own little mention. This is that read.

You're welcome.

Photo courtesy of alykat


This weekend I went to dinner at a friend's house. She had invited other friends. One our other friends has started to workout at well. And that "friend" has lost about 17 pounds, which is awesome, really awesome.

So just last week said "friend" started journaling about his food intake. Because of his journaling he is becoming really aware of how his food intake affects his weight. He was asking for tips on eating, and we were all throwing in our two cents. I said something. I don't remember what my tip was, but I was raised by a nutrition Nazi so I know it was brilliant.

He replied with, "I don't know why I should listen to you. You've lost nothing!"

Yeah, he's been moved to the "friend" category. After my struggles with this weight thing, friends without the quotes know better to say stuff like that to my face, even if they are thinking it!

Friday, April 20, 2007

Weekly Weigh-In

Weight: Same

Sunday--30 minute walk around neighborhood
Monday--45 minutes spinning class
Tuesday--45 minutes spinning class; 1 hour yoga/pilates class
Wednesday--1 hour weight training
Thursday--30 minutes elliptical; spinning
Friday--1 hour weight training

Diet: No cheating all week--Yay me (a lot of good it did me)

So I'll say it again. I'm sick of struggling for a lot of nothing. Honestly I can't add any more exercise. I don't have time. And haven't a clue about the diet. I'm doing the diet that got off the 3 pounds initially. Really, with some cheating the 3rd week, I haven't gone off of it. So what the hell???

I think I'm going to be jealous of all you ladies who've lost. So bear with me, I'll try to be kind but I'm really frustrated. And don't tell me I'm building muscle. I've been building muscle for almost 4 MONTHS now. AND I'M NOT SHRINKING!!! It's not even about the weight any more. It's about the clothes. When am I going to drop back down the the size I was before I went off of the pill? And don't tell me perhaps I'm at the smallest I'm going to be. I'm not even trying to get to HS size or college size or even pre-baby size. I'm trying to get to the size I was one and now a 1/2 years ago. I was happy at that size. I wasn't skinny then. I had the rolls. But I felt good in my skin. And that's all I'm asking for. Is that too much?

And you know what's frustrating? I think I've been accused by about everyone that I'm lying about what I'm doing. For my friends who are doing a part of what I'm doing are getting smaller. I think that's the worst part. And I've about had it.

Well that's enough of that pitty party.

See my forced smile?

How are you?

Thursday, April 19, 2007

How's Your Body Image?

I took this test yesterday as I had writer's block and was trying to stimulate the brain. But as you can tell (if you followed the link), I wasn't too successful. So sorry guys; you are just going to have to suffer through my ramblings! And while you're's a little quiz. Enjoy!

Your Body Image is 32% Unhealthy, 68% Healthy

You're body image is quite healthy, though you're sometimes a little bit too hard on yourself.
Chances are you've got a rockin' body - so enjoy it!

Oh...and since I've got writer's block, the rest of my post is over here. You can do it. Follow the link. There you go. No? You're still here. OK. Take the little mousy and make the arrow move. Got that? OK. Now move the arrow to the underlined word "here." Got that? OK. Now push the left button on your mouse. Yay you!


You're still here.

I can't help you.

No really.

I can't help you.

Don't cry.

Maybe you should go to the gym instead.

You're good at that.

Don't cry.

Now see I feel bad.

I, I have to go.


I said...Goodbye!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

So yesterday I did the spinning class again. And the teacher was awesome. I just have to say one thing...hey Thursday teacher...YOU SUCK! Quit already.

So about spinning. My patootee...oweeee! But I do have to say, "I'm sorry honey, not tonight. Spinning class was too hard," is a much better excuse than the headache one. Seriously. I think if anyone went anywhere near that part of my anatomy right now I'd have to hurt them. Seriously. I think I'm bruised.

So yesterday after class I was all hopped up on adrenaline, and when the teacher suggested we all take the next class, yoga/pilates, I thought, "Cool!"


Not so cool.

The class focused on legs.


And the legs are pissed today. But I do have to admit the class wasn't a total waste. I got a good nap in the last three minutes of class. At least I think I was sleeping. I sure did jump when the teacher started talking after 3 minutes of pure silence and mellow yoga music.

I wonder if I snored.

Anyway, I have been starving lately. So I have a question. Are most of you crazy hungry the day of an intense workout? How about the day after? No? Not the day after?

Maybe it's stress.

Well that's all for now. My daughter has come into my office and said, Mom, "You must feed me now!!!! Palease! I'm SERIOUS!"

I have got to stop blogging in the morning and save it for when she's at school.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

I am so sick of struggling!!!!

So this weekend I got sick. I got sick because I took care of a sick child last week. And I got sick. And I still had to take care of children, and a man, and a birthday party. So I drugged myself up and went after it. But what happens to me when I'm sick is that I tend to have less willpower. In fact I tend to completely revert to my old eating habits. So at the grocery store Friday when I was getting the treat for my son's class, I bought my daughter and I our own cookies. And we ate them. Then on Saturday when the party was done, and I could finally collapse, rather than finding the energy to cook myself something healthy, I dove into the left over cupcakes from the party. And Sunday rather than cooking a healthy dinner for the family, I said, "Screw it! I am so sick of struggling, and I order pizza!"

And Monday I weighed.

Up three pounds.

Son of a......

Can I say it again? I am so sick of struggling. I gained the 3 pounds it took me one month of nitpicking and exercising to exhaustion to get off. I AM SO SICK OF STRUGGLING!!!

Anyway, had to get that one gripe in. I'm off to my spinning class. I went yesterday and my pattooteee really hurts. But boy does that class burn it off. I'm hoping it will burn it off better than the other cardio I was doing. You know why?


Friday, April 13, 2007

Weekly Weigh-In

So it’s Friday. Feeling MILF like ladies? My asthma really bugging me today so not so much for me. Can I say it again? Stupid Oklahoma! But on the business at hand.

Weight: Lost one pound. Yeah baby! Did fine on the eating. Did have a couple of days this week where I forgot to eat a meal. What’s that about? I always laughed at people who said they forgot to eat. Huh? Forget to eat? Who does that? Apparently I do now.

--Saturday: Never ending vigorous housekeeping and climbing up and down a ladder painting. I’m counting this as exercise because when I fell into bed that night, I was exhausted! Whatcha going to do about it?
--Sunday: Nada
--Monday: 40 minutes(4 ½ miles) elliptical; 1 hour lifting
--Tuesday: Nada
--Wednesday: 35 minutes (3 ½ miles) elliptical; 1 hour lifting
--Thursday: 45 minutes spinning class
--Friday: Nada
Not a bad week.

On another note...

Last night I watched Work Out on Bravo. On it they seemed to be focusing a lot on the story of Doug Blasdell, one of the trainers. He turned 44 on the show, and the show ended by his boss announcing that he had been hospitalized for the flu and dehydration, which had caused kidney failure. I went online to see what had happened and come to find out he later died in January of 2007.

This story line about this man is just shocking to me. He seemed to be very healthy, and he most certainly looked so. He had a positive attitude about life and seemed to have a really healthy, mature, and calm attitude about his life, especially concerning the choices he’s made and the experiences he’d had. And if the flu could eventually take down a man like that…well it really makes you think now doesn’t it?

For me it makes me realize how little control one actually has over one’s own life. You can be healthy physically. You can be healthy spiritually. You can be healthy emotionally. And the flu can still take you down. I guess the one thing that can comfort you when you discover this fact is that you did live your life well, so that when something unexpected takes you down, there will be peace.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Bwa hahahaha...cough, hack...ha!

I just finished spinning class. I swear that class kicks my butt every time! It was a little rough at the beginning today as I've been having asthma and allergy issues (stupid Oklahoma). Normally it takes me 5-10 minutes to warm up, but today it took a good 15 before I was breathing well.

Oh, by the way. Have I told you about our funny little 20-something instructor? She cracks us up every time Tina and I go. Well we've only gone twice, but both times she cracked us up! Here are some of her best...

Story 1:
There are two guys in the class that are obviously not in their 20's, 30's, or even 40's. Little Instructor Girl says during the cool down, "So J****. Tell me about your friend, how old is he?"

J*** reluctantly responds, "62 and I'm 60."

Little Instructor Girl, "Wow! Look at those legs ladies. I hope when I'm that old I can still get after it. Let that be an example to you! Wow! 64!"

J***, "62."

Me and Tina, "Bwa hahahaha!"

Story 2:
Little Instructor Girl, "OK ladies, let's take it down a bit. Let's check our heart rate." She puts her fingers on her neck to check her pulse. "Wow! That's high."

Me and Tina (well mostly Tina...I'm sucking too much wind to laugh), "Bwa hahahaha!"

I guess these examples just prove Tina's, a former trainer, theory, "You don't have to be smart to work at the gym."

Monday, April 09, 2007

Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me?

Especially after 4 1/2 miles on the elliptical machine with a 1 hour weight lifting routine right in the middle. Yeah baby,



So concerning my 120 calorie snack that I get every day, does Easter candy count? I hope so because it's just so darn yummy!

Friday, April 06, 2007

Future MILF: Weekly Weigh-In

Weight: Same as last week. Did OK with the diet. Well there was that one day where I finished off Big D's b-day cookies. But you know, whatever!;)
Exercise: Monday 45 minutes cardio; 1 hour weights; Tuesday-Off; Wednesday-Chloe Sick; Thursday-Chloe Sick; Friday-45 minutes weights - 30 minutes cardio

Yeah - This week I sucked at working out. I could have gotten up early before Big D left for work and made it to the gym on Wednesday or Thursday. But I didn't. And I'd like to say that I'll make it up this weekend. But I probably won't; I've got too much to do this weekend.

Anyway, I read this good quote this morning:

Try as hard as we may for perfection, the net result of our labors is an amazing variety of imperfectness. We are surprised at our own versatility in being able to fail in so many different ways.
Samuel McChord Crothers
This was definitely not a striving for perfection week. But it wasn't a total failure either. Instead I think I'll just chock this one up to the break-even gods.

How did you do?