Sunday, July 29, 2007

We should abstain from violence, debauchery, evil deeds, sensual-attachment, hatred, anger and ego. ” Atharva Veda

Yeah right!

So I took the weekend off. I drank wine, I ate cookies, and even had a patty-melt. I enjoyed everything but the patty melt. The whole time I was thinking, man...what is this going to do to me? And today I found out what a weekend of debauchery does to my body. It adds 3 pounds is what it does!

Holy Crap! That is so depressing.

So I have to go see my relatives in a couple of weeks. I was hoping to be in the 140's by then. But at 1 pound a week, that's not going to happen. Maybe I can try to get it to 2 pounds a week. That would be OK. I guess.

So OK, I'm going to be totally strict this week. And the next. And part of the next...

And then I'll be in a fun big city with lots of good restaurants.

And the debauchery can happen again!

Wooohooo!

What?

So I'll gain a few. The kids are back in school the week I get back. I can go kill myself at the gym 5 days a week then to get it off.

But for now, let the starvation begin.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Blogher '07

But I'm taking the time off from blogging anyway!
See you Monday!

Thanks to Lotta for the button!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Desperation...

Recently I've been reading a lot about people making fun of Alli, and the people who seem stupid enough to take it. And I have to say I wonder about those people. Do they know what it's like to do everything right and have nothing work? Do they know what it feels like to have people talk behind your back about how they think your full of crap about what your doing, for you'd be losing weight if you actually did what you said you did. Do they know what it's like when some people finally tell you to your face that they think you're "lying to yourself?" Do they know what it's like to see your body go through all sorts of changes that you can't explain and can't control? Do they know what it's like after all of that humiliation to be so afraid of going to the doctor for help because you can't take one more humiliating experience? Do they know how desperate you've become? That you would try a pill even though you are desperately afraid of putting anything in your body that's not natural...to the point where you don't even like to take an acetaminophen? But you try it anyway because you can't take the loss of control one more minute???? Do they know?

And do they know and make fun of these people anyway?

Wow.

That's pretty mean.

Here.

I made this badge for you.



Friday, July 20, 2007

MILF Weekly Weigh-In

Weight: 154, Down .8.
Diet: Same but struggling to keep it that way. I've have been crazy starving this week! I don't know what the deal is. Maybe too many carbs? Who knows.
Exercise: Negatives at the gym 2x, Running once.

Fridays are a struggle for me. All week I weigh 153.something and Friday comes, and I'm always up. But Saturday, I'm back down to what I was during the week. I think my body is playing a little trick with me, but if this is some sort of motivation trick...I'm not interested!

On another note, Tina and I have been doing negatives at the gym lately. For those of you who don't know, negatives work your slow muscles instead of your quick muscles. Basically it's just like regular lifting only you release your lift really, really slowly. And you tend to have to lift a little lighter because it's a LOT harder.

The first time I heard about quick muscles and slow muscles was on some infomercial with the Walker, Texas Ranger guy. It was late, late at night. I had come home from a night out of fun and libations, and there was Chuck in his muscle bound glory demonstrating his latest workout gadget. And as it usually happens when I'm drunk I was fascinated by his infomercial. I vowed to try to work my slow muscles as well as the quick one's which at the time I wasn't working at all.

And as it usually happened, the drunk vow I made didn't make it to sobriety until last week when Tina said, "Let's try something different." Owwwwy ouch ouch ouch! Muscles that have never been sore before (like my back and shoulder muscles) became seriously painful. And muscles that are always sore after a workout (like my triceps) hit a new level of pain, the level where you can't even make yourself lift your arms. Yeah, last week was a seriously painful week.

But this week, things have improved. I'm still sore, but only mildly. It's amazing how quickly a body adapts to changes. I guess that's why they say that one needs to change up their workout often.

Anyway, how was your week?

I'd love to pass out some more awards....I'll be watching!

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Bye-Bye 5!

The last time I successfully lost weight I was in Weight Watcher's. When I was in Weight Watcher's, at the meetings they gave out awards for goals achieved. The first goal they gave an award for was the 5 pound goal. Now for some of us the first 5 pounds come off almost instantly. But for other's it came off slowly...oh, so, slowly! But either way when you hit that goal you would get your name announced, you would stand up in front of everybody, and you would gleefully accept your award which was usually something small like a bookmark or something. But you loved that bookmark for it represented something to you, something great that you had done for yourself.

So last week I hit my 5 pounds lost goal. But there was no reward given to me. And quite frankly, I missed it. So...I created my own!

Whew!

I feel better!

I think I'm going to spread the love. I'm going to send it on over to a gal who started the whole Future M.I.L.F. shabang. Now I know she's already lost like 25 pounds, but no-one gave her an award. So here you go Lotta! Here are your awards.


Wow! That's a lot! Makes you feel good no?

OK, now it's your turn, my readers. Feel free to copy the button and then...

pass it on!

Friday, July 13, 2007

Future MILF: Weekly Weigh-In

Weight: 154.8--Down 1.4
Exercise: Absolutely near nothing. Well I am going to the gym this morning. But really, I'm too obsessed with my new hobby to be interested in a silly thing like exercise!
Diet: Same old, same old.

So finally I'm seeing the 4 again. See how boozin' it up can totally screw up your diet? Two weeks ago on a Tuesday I saw the 4. But then I had a beverage. OK, OK. I had a few beverages. And it's taken me how long to see the 4 again? 1 week and 1/2? Geez Louise! Lesson learned. Well almost...that glass of wine last night did taste mighty fine.

Well I better go and see what the kiddies are doing. They just did this little subversive maneuver past my office door. One did a quick run by. Then the other peeked in quickly and did a quick run by. Now I hear some pretty intense whispering going on....

Little Children! What are you doing??????

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Warning: Gross Factor

Diarrhea
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Diarrhea
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Some people think it's funny
But it's really red and runny

Diarrhea
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Diarrhea
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Yeah.

It's my fault really.

I just had to have those yummy dripping in buttery cinnamon/sugar bread sticks from our local pizza joint.

Yeah.

My fault.

(Hey! Don't say I didn't warn you! )

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

The dilema

When I first started gaining weight I stopped buying clothes. I wouldn't let myself have anything new or nice until I got the weight off. But then the weight wouldn't come off. So I started buying clothes.

At first I would only buy the cheap one's. Then I got sick of that and started buying nicer things. I figured that if they weight wouldn't come off, then I should at least try to make myself look as good as possible.

So now I have some favorite's that I love. I put these clothes on, and I forget that I'm over-weight. Only when pictures are taken am I reminded.

But now I've started losing weight.

And last night to go out to dinner with my ladies I put on one of my favorite pair of pants.

They were too big! They were not dramatically too big, but they were big enough that I had to use a belt to cinch them in. And then I panicked, for I know that in 5 more pounds they'll be way to big. And I love these pants! Really love them!

Maybe I'll get them altered.

I knew I shouldn't have bought any clothes until I lost some more weight.

Save your money Big D.

5 more pounds and the shopping will begin!

Saturday, July 07, 2007

Future MILF: Weekly Weigh-In - Update

Weight - today - 3 days after alcohol - 155.6 which is what I was a week ago...exactly. So this week really, nothing lost, nothing gained. A little frustrating as Wednesday morning pre-alcohol I weight 154.2. Whatever. Back on track. I certainly won't be drinking tonight with the girlfriends.

Friday, July 06, 2007

Future MILF: Weekly Weigh-In - Alcohol

Weight: 156.2
Exercise: Walking; Lifting weights; 1K Fun Run with the family
Diet: 1200-1400/under 20 g fat per meal

So why the gain when I was down earlier in the week? One word...alcohol. July 4th was a big party evening. I didn't so much eat too badly, but I did consume quite a bit of alcohol. I'm not too worried as it usually takes 3 fully days to sweat it all out of my system and for my weight to be back to normal on the scale. Usually it stands for about 1-2 pounds. We'll see if that holds true with my new crazy body that's doing it's own thing!

I'll be back tomorrow with another weigh-in! See you then!

Monday, July 02, 2007

One....singular sensation...every little step she takes.....One!

I saw the 4! Woohoo...the four! Do you know how long it's been since I've seen a four on the scale? I know it's just ONE little number but it has been oh, so long. And that reminds me of a story from last week that I've forgotten to share.

At the doctor's office:

The aide as I'm checking out, "Do you work out?"

Me, "Yeah."

The aide, "I can tell. Nothing wiggles on you does it?"

Yeah.

Let that absorb.

Fantastic no?

So what if she could only see me from the waist up because of the tall counter....

I'm reminded of a song.

Here...I'll share it.



One singular sensation, every little step she takes
One thrilling combination, every move that she makes
One smile and suddenly nobody else will do
You know you'll never be lonely with you-know-who

One moment in her presence and you can forget the rest
For the girl is second best to none, son
Oooh! Sigh! Give her your attention
Do I really have to mention she's the one

Really, shouldn't we all sing this song to ourselves???

Go ahead.

Sing it.

You're the one!